Hahaha its been long since I have written my blog....

Day seems to even darken to me even its Chinese New Year.... Didn't know a single person could brighten my day bringing me to the peak the highest mountain at one moment and pushing me down the twin towers at the very next.... I did want to be like this... It's Chinese New Year yet I am saddening myself over a gal...

Yesterday being the first day of Chinese New Year was suppose to be a great day for me as I will see my cousins and my relatives, not forgetting my fav childhood playmate auntie (whose older 8yrs then me) with a lovely 1.5years old daughter). But I didn't really had the mood.... How I wish I did put the damn switch on for my computer... How I wish I could I could jus ignore her when I was in the net.....

I really couldn't believe myself... There's this gal who knew I like her telling me that she and her guy fren had book each other on Valentine's, even though there wasn't any topic on this!!! Hahaha feel like thousand arrows had jus landed on me, I COULDN'T BELIEVE MYSELF!!! She said that she would reserve that day for me, and she telling me that she had booked another guy on that day.... Maybe it was jus a by pass note she gave on the phone but I took it for serious!!! That was as far as I can take. Why made the effort and money calling me all the way from Australia, when you treat me like nothing... Why come to me when you needed someone to be by your side... I really have enough of this... Who do you think I am??? A one-stop comforting station when you are down??? I may only be a merely ordinary human unlike the hunks out there, but I have feelings too!!! So pls stop hurting my feelings, more even worst when you knew it!!!! Do you find it having fun fooling and hurting my feeling??? 我也是妈生的！！！

Things doesn't sail as smoothly as people wished for, but I think it is really time for me to pull myself up and move on... Picking up the broken pieces of my heart and move to new grounds, to a place where it will accept me for who I am, to a where a place where I can rest my heart on....

Pardon me for being childish, but I have more vaulable friends and things to spend on. Don't even to bother on telling me when you will be reaching Singapore, COS I WILL NOT BE GOING!!!! Don't even bother calling me your friend when you hurt my feeling for so many times...

03/01/04

Hahaha pull myself out of bed cos I needed to a scholarship talk held by Ministry of Home Affairs at the ICA buling at Lavender. Noelle wasn't able to make it (fell sick), but saw Jeremy there. It was at the highest level (10th floor) of ICA building, with a big and nice sky garden.

The registration was at 9am, also got to know that Cissy and Diane receive the call to the invitation too!!! Got a really nice goodie bag, which is a cool sling bag and a mutli-purpose pen!!! It began with the citeria for taking up the scholarship, it made me feel so out of place, cos I know I couldn't get the Certificate of Merit (C.O.M). But The talk was quite interesting as it was about life and experinces of a few scholars from different departments like police force, SCDF, etc..... After I went to clear my doubts with one of the organiser to find out how they select people to go for the talk. To my suprise, it was my school Ngee Ann who recommanded us to go for the talk?! It made me think or should I say dreamt that I might be getting the C.O.M!!! Hahahaha it jokes man!!!

Meet Raymond at 12:45pm after the talk at Chinatown MRT, but he was late for 15mins (still acceptable). Then we went for lunch at the hawker there. We had a chat with the old uncles there and found that hey, those man are way cool!!! They were meeting up to have tea and chit-chat (normal), but they also talk bout movies which were the latest ones like LOTR 3 and Infernal Affairs 3!!!! Hahaha u know, some of my frens still haven watch the movies!!! How up to date!!!!

At 1.50pm, Raymond and I went back to the mrt station to meet up with Candy (whom I knew from the net). The meeting time was 2pm so I tot it was polite trying to be early and not letting them wait. Wanted to meet up with Paul to get the present from Ellis but Paul forgotten to bout it on his way so haizzzz.... Then I called Candy to ask where she was at that time, to my shock, she was still at home. She told me she will be us by ten mins, but you know where she stays? Its Hougang, which is damn pretty far away from Chinatown. You think I'm a 3 yr old kid who will believe u that u will reach us in ten mins where u are so far away???? How risible!!!

It was 2.25pm when I was getting kind of impatiention. Gave her another call and found that she is still in Hougang. Raymond got frustrated as it was the first time meeting up with this gal. I agreed to meet up with her for ktv as she said it was for celebrating her birthday (not today) on the first place. Raymond's frustration also started to influence me as we were like two stupid beggers sitting on the floor begging for nothing...

At around 2:35pm, we got to our feet and decided to go for a walk... Then we decided not to go to ktv too, when both of has have waited long enough for our face to turn black and no mood to sing anymore. So I call Carrick instead and join him to go for the interview for going into UK university. Meeting him at 3.30pm.

At 3pm, finally the gals reach, but we were already half way to Tanjong Pagar. so, didn'twant to listen to their calls, we sms her instead, telling her that we were meeting someother pp and we were in n mood 4 singing already... But she was so persistant that she made more then 20 phoecal in total fo both my hp and Raymond's hp...

Ah!!!!! DUN wanna talk bout that liao... Made me feel both angry, but guilty at the same time for turning off the date.

Meet Carrick and he also was late!!!! WHY AM I WAITING FOR THE WHOLE DAY!!!!!!!! Super sian for the first part of the day!!! Hahaha we also went to the wrong building. But nevermind, I got to see my distant cousin Emily, who turn out to be quite pretty after makeup :P

Went back home for a bath then meet Huxin and Liu Hui with Carrick and Raymond to watch the movie Ju-on 2!!! Hahaha I had fun making Huxin watch the scary scenes and scaring her.The movie was quite lame and didn't reallt met out expectations.

After the movie we met up with Yining who had juz finish work. Had a litte chit chat before Carrick needs to go off!!! The side effects came, as I always do after watching scarely movies even though I wasn't afraid when watching... Then Huxin suggested to go her house then I said why not!!! Cos I had to have a long 15mins lonely and dark walk before I could reach home!!!!

04/01/04
Whoa reach Hu Xin's house and found wha a big living room she had. She was stay with quite a lot of people so was like it was juz big enough for them@@ Then Liu Hui, Hu Xin and me had fun chit chatting, playing fortune telling using poker cards. Had ice-cream prata shared wif Hu xin and Liu Hui who had a beef rice since she was the most hungry
out of the 3 of us.... Slept at 5 in the morning with 3 of us sharing the sofa!!! Raymond you shld had followed me!!!

Woke up at 10.30am cos Hu Xin needed to go for work at 11. Quickly rush home to check how to get to my Sir's new house as he was having housing warming tonight!!!! Another motive was to quickly get my mom to buy me a pair of Levi's jeans!!!!

Hahahaha had a wonderful time shopping with my mom today!!! I bought a pair of Levi's jeans at $50plus after 20% discount, a pair of Springfield jeans at $61.40 (include $3 alteration) and a Springfield t-shirt at $33 before 20% discount!!! Hahahahaha what a fruitful day!!! But went to ATM to draw out $50 to return to my mom as I feel guilty for spendiing so much money of her money at clothes.

Went to Tanjong Katong after shopping, to go to my TKD Sir's housing warming!!!! First time going but manage to get there without asking ppl nor taking a cab.... Went to the shopping centre near my sir's place jus opposite of Lion City Hotel (Hahaha shopping again)!!! The popiah there is super nice!!! LOL the shopping centre really reminds me of Holiday Plaza in Malaysia!!!! Saw 笑傲江湖 part 2 vcd at $15 so cheap(usually $50plus), some more acted by one of my fav actor, 周润发 (Chow Yun Fatt)!!! I always have been a fanatic fan of the Final Fantasy series, saw a gamehop that sell lots of limited edition things on games!!!! I saw the limited edition of Yuna's Tiny Bee at $299(F**king Expensive!!!). I tot the guns were all sold out and couldn't be found in Singapore!!!! How I wish I had the extra money to buy the pair of gun (YUNA I LOVE YOU!!! FINAL FANTASY RULES!!!!)

Wanted to buy tibits (dry guava) but was wondering a while cos my mom didn't really want me to buy it. But I still bought it in the end, where I had given an additional $1(LOL)!!! Then my mom suan me saying that, :" Whoa see pretty gal give more money lah!!!" puizzz I'm innocent!!!

Went back to my Sir's house, quite a nice cosy semi-detached (hmm... Didn't knew my Sir was that rich?!) Had a great buffet dinner and a wonderful performance from my fellow tkd frens!!! LOL I finally gotten my BLACK BELT CERTIFICATE!!!!! Being waiting for ages, but I'm gald I gotten it today cos I at lease gotten it with photograph taken by Pro!!! Should have gone with me Lionel!!!!

May tomorrow be an even better day!!!

Happy New Year!!!

31/12/03
Whoa had a nice half day work, but really tired due to late slepping last night...
Ate pasteries for lunch and so I was like, whoa I'm so full!!! So I was thinking of going for a jog but my eyes were like closing... So went home and played with my microphone on my computer before Xinyi msn me asking me to go 4 a run?! Made me think... Why not?! Since I had to intention to go for it!!! Meeting her at 3:30pm at the bus-stop near my house. It was 3pm then, so I tot I could go 4 a quite nap, but overslept cos I put my alarm at 3.20am instead of 3.20pm!!! Thankfully Xinyi call to break my sleep (Sorrie Xinyi)!!!

Hahahaha found that I always have adventure trips with Xinyi (an outgoing and adventurous gal), like the one I had exploring with her at Selegie Road. Today I finally get to climb to the railway bridge over the canal at my house!!! I always wanted to do it but couldn't find anyone but her today!!!! It was scarely at first as the bridge was very old and the metals were all rusty and corroded!!! The height and view from the bridge was WHOA!!!!! and Xinyi had the feeling at Pulau Ubin!!! Then we had a 3.6km jog/run non stop, tiring but good!!! Later at my house, we cooled down abit and we on the computer to play. Since it was her first time at my house, she started to explore my room and guess wat!? She sat on my bed!!!!! After the sweat and dirt after run!!!!! But the worst thing is that she cross-legged on my bed with her socks!!! and the portion she sat was the place where I put my head at everynight!!!! AH!!!! Hahahaha but luckily I told her in a nice manner and she was kind enough and understanding enough to get off my bed:)

Was meeting Raymond at 7.30pm at orchard but couldn't make it on time cos the time Carrick reach my house was like 6plus and both of us needed to bath and get prepared , especially after a run... Hahaha the funny thing is that I ran again, juz to get to the bus-stop fast and catching the bus!!!

Had a great dinner at Far East. Then we walked around orchard and saw my secondary school mate and Daphne... Meet Renhe at HMV round 7plus... Then proceeded to Lido and met the rest of the people there...
Sat at Mac to wait for Yining to finish her work at eleven... The group of us: Carrick, Renhe, Raymond, Alfen and his girlfriend, Hu Xin, Liu Hui, Yining, Enrika and me!!! But dunno wat happened, Alfen and his gf started quarrelling and his girlfriend juz run off!!!! I couldn't help much cos I didn't want to interfere with their affairs, Sorry man!!!

Went to the fun fair at Orchard and poor Enrika was the first person to get sprayed but the other people and foam was like all over her!!! Poor Carrick that he had to protect Enrika from all the sprays, and I was trying to protect Hu Xin and the the two gals and spraying back at the other guys!!!!

It was secs before the countdown!!! 10,9,8,7,6,5,4,3,2....


IT'S 1st JANUARY 2004!!!!
Had fun over there but got injured on my right leg while chasing Raymond hahahaha!!! I shared one bumper car with Hu Xin when we played togther with my friends. Got to ride the thing since Huxin didn't know how to ride it, and we were like having lots of fun bumping other people!!! Vomitted there due to inhaling of SUPER DUPER SMELLY SHIT!!!! OH MY GOD!! Its the first hour of the year and I had to go through that!!!

Walk all the way to Suntec and it was like the PARTY is over at the Wealth fountain, and the other party in the convention hall was $46 and it was like 2.30am in the morning already!!! Raymond got flared up since there was no party, and started blaming me that I broke my pomising of not letting him do the planning the new year eve programme... Hey sorry man, I know I broke the promise but I also had my difficulties.... But luckily Alfen was there to save the day, by helpping me calm Raymond down, thanks*_^

Finally, we found LIFE at Boat Quey and I was damn relieved (finally can answer to Raymond)... Saw Gina along the way as she was working at one of the pubs there and we settle down at a pub name Boat House.
Bought 14 bottles of FCUK at 2 bottles for $5!!! How f**king cheap WOHOO!! THEN I broght Liu Hui and Hu Xin to at coffee shop to have supper as we were so hungry, leaving the others to party and drink first:)

On the way we went pass Blazaar, for me to get a look of my primary school friend, but haizzz, the pub had finished thier operating hours!!! But guess wat?! I saw her when I was at the coffee shop!!! AHhh... First Love... First gal I had ever admired.... But really saddening to know that she stopped schooling during secondary school... Worst of all is that she had a look that she dunno me when I called "Yanting" Also saw the big tatoo she had over her breast since she was wearing spahgetti strip... Totally lost my appetite... Didn't know y but I also had stomachache....

Went back to the guys when we finished eating and found Enrika's face really red like tomato!!! Carrick, Alfen and Raymond had 3 bottles. Renhe had 2 bottles, and the rest had one bottle each except me and Hu Xin. Enrika was like starting to talk rubbish after one bottle, and Raymond was like wanting to vomit lol!! Had another 4 frens join me on my way to Lau Pa Sa!!! St allth way till 6 before leaving... Lucky Enrika for her to get a cab home!!! Where Renhe couldn't get one so had to accompany us by taking bus... When we board 75, the bus drive was like say:" You all clever ah, now where got taxi, today public holiday leh". Hahahaha lucky and clever of us to take bus huh!!!

Slept at 8am after bathing and drying Carrick and my hair.... Woke up at 6pm.. Wohoo!!! first thought that came to me was dinner... Wanted to ask Xinyi (who stays near me) for dinner but she already had a date so, too bad!!! Then Yining came online then starting to her, until Carrick woke up, then I asked her 4 dinner...

Met Yining at Jurong East at 7.30pm. Carrick suggested to watch "School of Rock", so we went to Jurong Entertainment centre to buy tickets!!! Had a nice Nasi Lemak for dinner then had the movie at 9.15pm!!!!
Nice Rocking Movie!!!! Reached home around 12pm writing my blog....

Blood pressure rises. Head spinning. Listening to the School of Rock.