Hahaha its been long since I have written my blog....

Day seems to even darken to me even its Chinese New Year.... Didn't know a single person could brighten my day bringing me to the peak the highest mountain at one moment and pushing me down the twin towers at the very next.... I did want to be like this... It's Chinese New Year yet I am saddening myself over a gal...

Yesterday being the first day of Chinese New Year was suppose to be a great day for me as I will see my cousins and my relatives, not forgetting my fav childhood playmate auntie (whose older 8yrs then me) with a lovely 1.5years old daughter). But I didn't really had the mood.... How I wish I did put the damn switch on for my computer... How I wish I could I could jus ignore her when I was in the net.....

I really couldn't believe myself... There's this gal who knew I like her telling me that she and her guy fren had book each other on Valentine's, even though there wasn't any topic on this!!! Hahaha feel like thousand arrows had jus landed on me, I COULDN'T BELIEVE MYSELF!!! She said that she would reserve that day for me, and she telling me that she had booked another guy on that day.... Maybe it was jus a by pass note she gave on the phone but I took it for serious!!! That was as far as I can take. Why made the effort and money calling me all the way from Australia, when you treat me like nothing... Why come to me when you needed someone to be by your side... I really have enough of this... Who do you think I am??? A one-stop comforting station when you are down??? I may only be a merely ordinary human unlike the hunks out there, but I have feelings too!!! So pls stop hurting my feelings, more even worst when you knew it!!!! Do you find it having fun fooling and hurting my feeling??? 我也是妈生的！！！

Things doesn't sail as smoothly as people wished for, but I think it is really time for me to pull myself up and move on... Picking up the broken pieces of my heart and move to new grounds, to a place where it will accept me for who I am, to a where a place where I can rest my heart on....

Pardon me for being childish, but I have more vaulable friends and things to spend on. Don't even to bother on telling me when you will be reaching Singapore, COS I WILL NOT BE GOING!!!! Don't even bother calling me your friend when you hurt my feeling for so many times...