11/02/4
1.08am

Simple words which became which became a cold sharp sword which pierce through my heart... Anger boils in me, boilling my life away... I'm tired... I jus cannot believe myself... I feel terrible, how could she treat me this way... I know I not your bf or any one who is dear to u but please, I have my feellings too. How could you tell me that u have gotten ur result in icq and turn around & ask me how I know you gotten ur results in msn. Turning around telling me," so what u r zixin then must know everything meh". Then pls fucking next time dun tell me anything bout u or call me when u needed someone to talk to...

Watching "Long Vacation" episode 9, hahaha how coincidental to have shed my tears at the same time with Sena (main character). I really want to move on, but is there anyone who can guide me the way out??? I feel miserable... Dun even know how to express myself in words...


[12:32:42 AM] Finally back: how u know today i know my result?
[12:34:28 AM] (U)HoW I wiS: u know i who?
[12:35:17 AM] Finally back: huh
[12:36:18 AM] (U)HoW I wiS: do u know who i am?
[12:36:33 AM] Finally back: zixin lah
[12:37:31 AM] (U)HoW I wiS: then u ask me how i know u today got ur
result?
[12:38:27 AM] Finally back: wao lao.,..
[12:39:14 AM] (U)HoW I wiS: ?
[12:41:05 AM] Finally back: so what u r zixin then must know
everything meh
[12:45:08 AM] (U)HoW I wiS: i mean u u told me in icq then u turn
around n ask me how i know?
[12:46:13 AM] Finally back: is it?
[12:46:53 AM] (U)HoW I wiS: forget it
[12:46:57 AM] (U)HoW I wiS: dun talk to me
[12:47:14 AM] Finally back: ok loh
[12:48:50 AM] Finally back: i sick already stil treat me like that
[12:49:43 AM] (U)HoW I wiS: then u can treat me like that lah
[12:50:58 AM] Finally back: ok loh
[12:51:07 AM] Finally back: i go n slp liao since u don want to talk
to me
[12:55:39 AM] Finally back: bb

05/02/04
Thursday

Another day in the office... Had attend an Appreciation Pressentation in the morning (almost fell asleep) to the service providers of Reuters. Busy Day for me in the office cos I needed to finish a lot of tasks in a short amount of time.

Hahaha forgotten to bring my piano scores.... Almost got a scolding from Miss Goh but lucky for me that she had a new score for me to learn... Meet Mom for dinner after piano and paid my piano fees $304.50... Dammn expensive... Finally I made up my mind to buy a piano!!!!! But only going to buy a second hand piano cos its too much for me to handle the price of a brandnew one... My teacher suggest to buy an electric piano, but i would rather not buy if thats the case... So she will be helping me to source the piano and help me find a good & cheap one!!! Hahaha its been more then 3 years, and I can finally got the chance....

Went to River Ang to meet Ellis and Chee Han... On the way, saw my former Drum Major, when I was Sec 1 & 2, Han Qing (butch but a very nice person). Hahahaha first thing she told me was :"Talk to u another day" She was going to receive a call but the funny thing was I think her another day will be many years later!!! Cos I won't be see her soon and I dun even have her contacts and neither does her!!!

Meet Ellis and Chee Han at the Marina Food Court at 9.15pm then we proceed on to our destination. It was June since I last saw her... She gotten a bit plump but still the one I couldn't forget all this while but I have long given up on her......

Went around the place teasing her along the way. I missed the smiles I saw on her face. Wanted to play the rides but Chee Han wasn't feeling well & Ellis doesn't want to play... The jet shot is only $15 if u present ur student card!!!!
So quickly call Yining to arrange a date b4 Sunday(the last day) to go play the rides!!!! But because due to the enthusiasm, I totally forgotten that I had a date with my Sec school friends for Steamboat, & agreed on Friday!!!! I'm so sorry Yining (Gomenasai)!!!

I manage to get Chee Han and Ellis to play one of the rides but couldn't really remember the name(is was something call,"Top Dancer"). Chee Han really gave me a shock when he say he cannot take it when the ride started!!! But luckily the control man heard me and they stop the machine... Oh man, it really gave me a shock!!! But I was lucky too!!! Imagine all the sits were empty left ony me & Ellis on the ride, I really don't know how to express it in words... Because of Chee Han, I got myself another ride but this time is with another gal... The ride doesn't seem popular after the raise from $5 to $7.50, so the ride was only 2 person again!!!! She was a cute gal (from side view & the way she talk, she really reminded me of the gal I admired when I was in primary school), too bad I didn't get her name & I think she was too young for me....

Really had an enjoyable night.....